[current mood: shitty..][current music: My Hands -David Archuleta]
paper 1
chinese'a a try-harder-next-time draw
english's a don't-get-too-confident advise
well,
the compo exam today was shitty for chinese,
totally crapt-up on the letter part..
im NOT CHINESE,
jk, i just hate the all-so-complicated characters..
what the hell's a '人' ?!
answer: a mountain lik structure? (looks lik one i guess?)
dam it! wtf is this tis '三' ?!
answer: this is simple! its 3 horizontal line, parallel to one another! math says its PARALLEL LINES! MATH GENIUS dudes!
man I sound so shitty!
in chinese that is..
eng,
was blasting through the essay!
the letter i practically wrote 2 times to fill/edit words..
the question for the essay was something lik,
'will you miss your country if you went abroad for some time..'
HAH!
i practically wished i was nv born here!
Singapore? give me a break guys..
after exams.
camped at FCX,
studied SS!
got bored of life,
and jumped into the hot oils to get cooked-up for a moment so..
played basketball later,
cute-talked my way in the game ;)
here's a bed-time horror>>
-fast forwards
well i woke up after a short-nap,
to hear my sis bullying the maid and giving her a hard time to just bath,
she was practically playing the com,
and shouting with vulgarities at the maid to stop being a nag,
when she her ownself, cant get up and bath for a moment..
(my maid/auntie, myrna, is 15+ years with me now, and practically a family too, and i cant stand my sis fk-ing prob when she scolds her.)
my auntie is somehow scared of my sis, cause she'll twist the storey all round when my father gets back, and somehow, the blame would be on her instead..
so i asked my auntie to simply call dad..
yea lik she would..
this is why my sis has this fk-ing attitude, cause no one ever bothers to teach her, why?
cause she'll just be a daddy's girl and twist the facts, and in the end, all troubles YOU!
bitch!
so anyway,
i called dad.
i told him,
he talked to my sis.
suddenly, i hear my sis twisting the facts again,
and my dad was just saying,
'oh ok then..'
wtf?
i went up there,
and told my father the real facts,
my sis got messed-up and screamed at my face..
and NO ONE SCREAMS AT MY FACE WITH NO REASONS TO DO SO..
wrong choice girlfriend,
i fk-ing shout at her face,
i explained in a shouting voice,
i point my dam finger at her,
i reasoned out with her.
well,
she throws the phone sobbing in her tears of misery,
misery of why the fk her attitdes fk me..
dad calls me again,
scolded me on why i lost my temper..
dad: 'why you shout at her lik that? you know you are elder and you should control your temper and just tell me about it!'
me: 'i shout at her like that because she screamed at my face and if one talks loud and another responds loud, couldnt that be a sign that we're communicating?? i am the elder and i wan to teach her on why she is screaming vulgarities on myrna (my maid), if i tell you about it, then she'll just twist the facts into pieces of crap that in the end, you'll just say ok.. you heard how i responded at first, i was cool and calm, trying to tell you what was real and unreal, then she as a younger had to scream at my face? no one screams at my face for lies of no reasons, and because of her anger is that why she does so, onli me responding to talk her language.. she talk loud i talk loud, she talks indian, i'll gladly talk indian for her..
dad: 'well then you shouldnt even care about this, cause this matter is between myrna and her, and if she is misbehaving badly, myrna would tell me!'
me: 'well, if i dont care about anything she is mistreating on myrna, i wouldnt even be a brother and try to respond to her mistakes, and you think myrna would tell you? practically, she's scared that celine (sis) would twist the words and in the end, you'll tell myrna to go lightly on her! how many times have you heard evidence of celine mistreating myrna, but yet spare the rod and spoil the child, celine have said vulgarities a couple of times, and she often refers myrna's hometown, pangasinang as a form of bad word.. how did the f word came about? it is not because it's a meaning of bad language, but it is because people often uses that word as an insult and therefore it is now commonly used as foul language.. same here, you should have spotted with ur brains that celine was saying pagasinang as a form of bad word, and that alone is an personal insult to myrna, but thank the Lord, she still lives!
dad: 'do you want me to come home and cane both of you?'
me: 'well, i would gladly accept the cane but dont ever cane me at the same standard of celine's because she cause this, she raised her voice, she is the cause of why we are argueing now.. but i am in the wrong to speak her language of loud voices, so if she's crying because i am greatly higher in tone than her, then so be it, i'll accept the cane, not in the eyes of her.. she should learn that it is her mistake, and i learnt mine, but by caning at equality, this means the percentage of her thinking that, oh i cry i get same as roy, would be much higher and she'll tink that both of us are wrong, but her indulgence towards life would say, oh, it's roy's fault and im too blame, unfair.. so make known to her that it is her prob, and she is paying for that.. evrything you just let live, that is why she's of today! so what? if i nv raise my voice, and she nv learn, all's well ends well is it? well NO? duhh, i mean, who teaches one to be that way, opps sorry, you did, and the evidence is in celine's attitude now.. you tink she has a 'big heart of love? well, con-love i would say, love you now, give me back what i want..' con you for this with cute-love, but later fks you upside down if not given what wanted..'
dad: 'it is now their problem and myrna will complain to me if celine is lik that ok!'
me: 'well myrna, tell him what you have to say, if u are scared then im sorry.. but feel for me ok, everytime i try to help you, in the end i get the blame because of daddy, so if u wan to complain and tell him what happened, i tank you.. but if u just say it's not a prob, then its ok because i feel your position now.. i wonder celine's future, will it be of expected from her father? but after all this, daddy, why are you scolding me instead of celine? she is afterall, the leader of the pack, the cause of the trouble, the one that lies between her teeth and yet uses you to shield her way out? you know what myrna, i dont want to talk to someone who cant differentiate between wrong and right, and scolds for the sake of it.. who would scolds one that tried to teach but does a mistake on it, rather than the one who made the mistake in the first place, and lies about the truth, twisting all relms to prove her innocent onli to be shot down by someone who knows the truth? anyway myrna, i tried, i tried..'
(locks in room)
dad comes back home and ask me to gather with sis
dad: 'you shouldnt shout because she shout, however, because celine shout she is wrong, but you shout is also wrong, no matter what she is a girl and it wrong to shout at her, if you just complain to me, i scold celine, but now you shout, so both are equal..'
celine: 'but he also point at me what, i nv point at him.. i shout also because i crying what..'
my thoughts: 'well, if i didnt shout because she screamed at my face then i guess something called emotions and the teachings of the world wouldnt even be in the vocab? if celine is wrong to shout, then why the heck are you giving me crap instead of giving her? i empasize on the word, 'BOTH ARE EQUAL?' i was waiting for that, but pls, where is your stand now? she caused this, she has the offence of being a bitch and fk-ing myrna upside down, and now you said that because 1 minus 1 equals 0? and celine, pls dun act dumb? you tink you shout plus i shout with actions is 1 minus 2? pls la, one gets angry because of you so it suppose to be 9999999 minus 1.. you shout because you crying ah? so i shout because i not crying lor? right? cause u cry then u shout, but i dun wan leh, i shout cause i nv cry can? cause i pissed off can? cannot ah? sorry la.. psps, my bad k! loser.. as i expected now, celine thinks she's right, and my dad's mind has totally forgotten the fact that the bitch is torturing a poor unfortunate soul.. so this is that, that's this, i just wonder about the future, hope the world ends asap..'
*real conversation without f words..
life's real messed up dude,
haha make that messy but beautiful!
日番谷 冬獅郎,
Hitsugaya Tōshirō
Labels: bed time horrors
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