[current mood: (dun fckin bother me bout what to do)]
[current music: i (fckin) Don't Care -FallOutBoy {again}]
today got training..
then fckin wth lor..
Coral Secondary is,
UN-ORGANISED,
UN-SUPERVISED,
UN-COUTH son-of-a-bitch,
UN-DER/below standard,
1st i would like to apologise on behalf of FCKIN ms loi,
to the Sec 1's..
SORRY
sorry tat the stupid badminton thingy waste ur time,
really it's fckin bothered me quite sometime..
and worsen's as i go training today..
pls understand.
understand tat,
because WE BOTHERED TO FIND U GUYS AND GET THINGS CLEAR,
tat fcker scolded us,
because of ur sake,
WE GOT FCKING SCOLDED..
they say in Chinese,
Hao Xin Mei Hao Bao..
FCK TAT'S TOTALLY RIGHT!
especially to coral..
somemore, as i went to training..
fckin Stanley ask sec 1 go back..
SORRI
wth?
they came here with us,
u never say properly,
and i got scolded by stupid Loi
because u kept changing the plans..
then later,
Stanley-the-hell-fck-deer,
gav us a friggin,
no comman sense,
no fckin related,
no fckin concern,
lecture on our future?!
he was saying no link things lik:
'when we working in the future,
u talk talk talk,
u sure get fired,
but no one wil tell u..
same as badminton,
u talk talk talk,
u reserve-for-life..'
here's a compo to end it all,
a speech to the friggin-deer..
title:
WTH ARE U FRIGGIN SAYING?!
by Roy Quake
Conclusions says that you aren't happy about our life, even if you say,
'I'm just telling you about your attitude towards life, and how it will be like in the future.. It's for you to prepare..'
Guess what? Everything you said to me, i have recorded in this skull of mind, and i from the day you said it, have something to say in return.. I hope you enjoy this..
You said when i have something on the training day, that i never put my priorities right, i instead should move my family plans to another day..
'Why don't you move the badminton training to another day then?! Do you expect me to tell my parents, let's move out plans to another day, because I have plans on my own. Because I want to so called put-my-priorities-right. Because I hav a school training for badminton, and because of me i can't be at this family gathering, so move it to another day.. BECAUSE I SAID SO, BECAUSE I HAVE MY PLANS, BECAUSE I AM SELFISH, BECAUSE I DON'T CARE ABOUT MY FAMILY AND NEED TO PUT A SUPER-DOOPER-IMPORTANT-TRAININGS FIRST IN MY LIST OF PRIORITIES.. BADMINTON BEATS FAMILY.. is that what you want me to say? Why don't next time i jio you out when you are lets say having your father's birthday, or attending a funeral? And if you say you got plans, i would say.. PLS PUT YOUR PRIORITIES RIGHT, I HAV NO RESPECT FOR YOU ANYMORE.. what are you? who are you to tell me that badminton have better rights than my plans? i tell you too, CORAL SEC BADMINTON will never achieve anything, it has been changing coach year to year, why? Because they can't bring the gold back! So what if you train us hard? You don't know out teenage minds, you don't know how to achieve heights.. The only thing you know is that train train train train, you will achieve.. You think your sons will do great in the future as badminton players? There will always be someone in a better school, a school of sports, that beats him.. So what if they become Singapore's best player? China's population is greater, more talent, possibilities of being 1st, 0.01%.. Ok lets say your sons achieve first in the world.. CAN HE EARN A LIVING AS A BADMINTON PLAYER? Even if can, for awhile.. Population growth will exceed slowly, technology increases, talent increases.. Those who grows older, decreases in health.. Then later if he doesn't become a badminton player in Singapore or the world? What can he do? He now trains like 24/7, studies? a degree? I might as well study and be a lawyer as that is a chance, that is a proper living.. Can your sons support their generations being a badminton player? You must think that even if he can, he has to transport from country to country, playing in tornaments.. $ is spent travelling, $ is spent when you enter the competition, $ is lost if you don't win, possibility of winning to be top in the world, 1%.. Be that 1% and time for their kids and wife will be a minus.. As he grows old, he can't earn a living.. So spend his time, spend OUR time, instead of training super hard, and making our life shorten of studies to be SOMEONE, instead of chances of being a SOMEONE for only awhile.. I heard that, teach the kid how to fish, rather than catch fish for him, beacuse in the future, he'll be all alone, and to survive, he has to learn something that can support him.. AND THATS NOT HOLDING A BADMINTON RACKET.. You can't earn a living when you're older.. BE SOMEONE, LOSER.. A SOMEONE WHO CAN SURVIVE IN THE FUTURE..' -Roy Quake saying only half the story..
Another thing you said is that, you have no respect for me, because you don't trust me anymore, why? Because I did'nt come training, why? Because stated by me, i had family issues.. But instead, Respect and Trust from you is lacking.. Enjoy another part of me..
'you think that i was lying, even if i did, you gave up on people a long time ago.. It's your training that makes us a nobody that is wanting to break out and be someone.. But your work is not of seen to us, your work does not impact us.. Why? Because you simply don't respect us.. making us the same to you.. Why do you think we did not win the competitions.. Simply because of pressure, simply because you dont understand us, that some of us can be demoralising each other, some of us are trying to work out way up, but you did'nt took notice to our achievements.. Instead also demoralising us.. This is what you'll say, you'll say i am onli pushing to higher, so that you will be better.. Well WRONG.. Our human brain works this way, even if out spirits knows you are pushing us to grow higher, something in our brain still remembers the words of discouragement.. And when we do another mistake, you repremand us, making us think worst of out previous mistakes.. And when we strive hard to do out best, you say it was'nt enough, in fact, i think you never took notice of out achievments.. You only tell our mistakes, scolding us.. But how about pushing our spirits to go higher, accepting out achievements, praising us equally, rather than let our human brain occupy all shouts and negative comments you gave, pulling us down, lower lower.. You don't understand us, you don't understand me, and others dont understand you.. Know my thinking will be, change to coach, and i will work extra hard, as i want to go higher, not you pulling us down.. every training, evertime.. Try to change our thinking, although i know it wont happen.. You want us to achieve for our school, think how to do that.. Connect with us, know how we feel, instead of giving us a fcking look on your face every training, knowing that every training is going to be repremands and shouts.. NEVER A SMILE,NOR A PRAISE.. I hate this training, i hate you, i hate some people pulling us down too.. As they do not understand us.. And Judge us although they do not know why we're moving down... I TELL YOU, IT'S BECAUSE OF YOU.. change you, change me... not change me, although what stopping me is you..' -Roy Quake, bringing half of my anger to words..
Last, today's training. You scolded us, because simply we were talking.. I know it's wrong, and we were suppose to learn badminton by looking at matches... By know that we cant learn 24/7..
'Do you know the meaning of CCA, and school team? School teaming in that CCA means learning that sport at the same time try to earn gold's in competitions.. But i assure you, this is not a campionship team that trains 24/7 because we have nothin to do, and must earn a gold.. THIS IS NOT THE OLMPICS.. this is not a mager exam.. '0' levels is.. So instead of working 56625735 times as hard as other CCA school team, having NO SMILES<>
So you won't be able to see this post because you don't know the link.. but if you do, fire me for all i care, i will make my way up with friends, not a CCA without them.. frggin Stanley-deer..
*thoughts in BLUE
oh yea,
this year i think i become older and really forgetful..
I left my pencilbox in every history class,
todae i even left my whole bag in the toilet!
it was pe and i was changin you see..
then after school, i left my racket in class,
and it was locked, so had to climb..
2 more days
before i really forget every part of my life..
'this is so not my estacy..'
日番谷 冬獅郎,
Hitsugaya Tōshirō
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