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Sunday, December 28, 2008

5:19 AM

[current mood: angerfrustrationdepressionconfusiondistressed]

[current music: Last Christmas -Ashley Tisdale]

Last Christmas,

igav u my heart..

but the veri next day.,

you gav it away...

this year, to sav me from tears.

i'll giv it to someone special...

Last year,

i gav my soul into my CCA,

but in this present year.,

you did gav it away...

this year, to sav me from tears.,

should i put my heart and soul somewher else?

my heart says:

'go and be stronge among them as you still hav the passion for it..'

however,

my mind thinks:

'it's useless, you cant do anything right! goin ther is onli another rotting torture..'

who should i take path on?

my feelings tell me head on stronge..

but,

my thoughts says it'll onli be worst..

tmr's training,

one true training can change me..

but tat 1 can be the highest mountain i can climb..

'should i, should i not'

but i cant seem to bring myself to face evryone!

not tat it's my fault i nv come or something..

but how can i face evryone lik tis?

but i hav been undercover for a longlong time..

tis tat tis tat..

so many evils i heard.,

so many evils i seen.,

so many evils done..

and when someone else done them,

the evils just get unnoticed..

but why me?!

why must i be the one wher suspicous minds look at?!

at Church todae,

i prayed..

i prayed on forgiveness..

i prayed tat everything behind me will pass..

i prayed tat i will hav the strenght..

but will i be able to be stronge enough?

just put the blame on me!

i suc,

i seriously suc..

i cant do anything..

i hav no possbility of a talent in me!

i am what they call,

a pure loser..

a freaking bitch!

basterd!

freak!

nerd and still stupid..

i dunno what to do..

i just cant do anything..

im a useless freak..

im a freaking idiot!

im a freaking coward!

im hum ji bo ji!

i just dunno what,

how,

when to do anything..

just treat me as dirt..

i deserve it..

im nothing to you!

im just ur dog..

a cat..

a hamster..

a freaking dead mouse,

a handicapped tortise,

a shot-down bird,

a household low-life ant,

a cockroach waiting to be stepped on,

a lizard who frightens people,

a housefly who feeds on leftovers,

a mosquito onli feedin on people..

a freak-of-nature..

mayb if i go tmr,

i'll cut my wrist and go emo at a corner..

i'll be whacked and pushed.,

i'll be treated as a dog,

obeying it's owners every request..

lick his feet,

eat his leftovers,

do stuff tat proves im a dog..

or mayb,

i should resign to my fate as it is..

im a dog..

i'll lick ur feet,

i'll eat ur leftovers,

i'll be a dog u can beat up..

'should i should i not should i should i not should i should i not should i should i not should i..'

im just a pathatic loser..

im nothin in this universe..

dun even see this post..

'Roy was nv here,

...

and nv will he be.'

Lyrics Ashley Tisdale lyrics - Last Christmas lyrics

'i was nv in this world..'

日番谷冬獅郎,

Hitsugaya Tōshirō

Labels: feelings, heart, mind, thoughts