[current mood: hopeless in pain.. :( ]
[current music: I can(t) do better -Avril Lavigne]
hopeless in pain,
as the days are getting further,
and further,
and further..
from hope..
hopes of starting afresh.,
seems like the heavens are playing around with me..
this post is a summary of the whole 2 freakin day..
the 29th
the 30th /current post
29th
badminton training decision day..
however
got the news tat my Grandfather was admitted in the hospital as his vision,
was blurred..
so i our family had to rush to the hospital to visit him,
then had dinner with other relatives ther too..
so training.,
to me,
was excused due to family critical conditions..
dun tell me tat i hav to make priority of my trainings,
the Lord comes first,
then comes family..
30th /current post
todae was another training,
so i should hav gone right?
still nope..
yesterday,
something unconditional happened..
so i was excused..
my grandfather was admitted in hospital,
todae had news from the doc' tat he too had a liver failure.,
and he was in the worst shape!
he cant move,
he cant even answer a nature's call!
dun even tink of turning on the tv as he has no strenght to lift a finger!
so yesterday was a repeat..
a game..
my grandfather now is stress in decisions..
if he were to operate on his eyes,
the doc' is worried he cant take it..
but yet!
if he don't,
he may anytime go blind..
i worry for him,
and will pray for him tat he hav the strenght of the Lord to aid him..
he is in need of a miracle,
friends.,
pls pray for him tat he may hav the strenght for the operation..
i tank you all on his behalf.,
i too ask forgivness from all the baddies from coral,
tat i did not make it to training tis holiday..
belive it or not,
next year im force to go!
so i will go,
WILLINGLY!
sometimes,
i wonder.,
why each day i wan to start-a-new..
i get blocked..
i tink im still a hum ji kia..
a stupid coward!
next year i pray for courage and wisdom..
tat i may move forward instead of rooted to wher i am..
tournaments are coming.,
yet i cant do anything!?
i cant prove myself as ther is nothin!
i just cant do it ok..
internal competitions coming too..
guess who's last?
me!
Me!
ME!
'tanks' guys..
this last lyrics dedication,
is to myself..
wher they say 'I Can Do Better'
but fact is.,
i CANT do any better!
'I can do better -Avril Lavigne'
Uh, yeah you can do it
I didn't give a damn what you say to me
I don't really care what you think of me
Cause either way you're gonna think what you believe
There's nothing you could say that would hurt me
I'm better off without you anyway
I thought it would be hard but I'm ok
I don't need you if you're gonna be that way
Because with me, it's all or nothing
I'm sick of this shit, don't deny
You're a waste of time
I'm sick of this shit, don't ask why
[Chorus]
I hate you now
So go away from me
You're gone, so long
I can do better, I can do better
Hey, hey you
I found myself again
That's why you're gone
I can do better, I can do better
You're so full of it
I can't stand the way you act
I just can't comprehend
I don't think that you can handle it
I'm way over, over it
I will drink as much Limoncello as I can
And I'll do again and again
I don't really care what you have to say
Cause you know, you know you're nothing
(I'm so sick)
I'm sick of your shit, don't deny
You're a waste of time
I'm sick of your shit, don't ask why
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
What'd you say
I told you so
You know that
Cause I always know
Get outta my face
Hey hey
You're not my taste
Hey hey
I am so
Sick of you
You're on my nerves
I want to puke
Get get out of my face
Hey hey
You're not my taste
Hey hey
Hey hey
Hey hey
[Chorus X2]
'i dont giv a dam what you say to me!'
日番谷 冬獅郎,
Hitsugaya Tōshirō
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